Never ending.

[zippy]

I was at the ent specialist yesterday as you all probably know because I have posted a lot about it lately, I am doing my own head in with it so I will be doing yours in.
My brain fog is horrendous and now my right arm and leg feel weak and sort of numb which is feeding my brain tumour worries again. I have seen 2 gp's that have checked my eyes, been opticians, and now an ent specialist who all say theres nothing.I have been worrying about a brain tumour because of vertigo, left sided pressure and headaches, brain fog and not being able to think straight.
The ent did neuro tests etc and said nothing is going on in my brain and to be reassured.
I felt a bit reassured yesterday but I have woke up today worse than ever. I can't stop crying and feel like I wish he had sent me for a scan to put my mind at rest. I tried to get in my doctors today but it was booked up, I wanted to ask for help with the anxiety but I also felt like I needed to ask for bloods done for reassurance. I feel like I am losing my mind and myself. I just wish this stupid brain fog would go and I could think clearly. I don't know if I am depressed or anxious or both. It's not normal to sit crying all day and if anyone talks to me I just feel so emotional.
Sorry for yet another post and moan.

[nadine02]

Hi Zippy,

I've suffered with really bad anxiety for 10 years now (but have always been an anxious person). I've experienced ALL of the symptoms you've just mentioned and they were due to anxiety! I know it's hard but please take notice of what you've been told by the doctors! I'm sure when you accept there's nothing wrong then these symptoms will reduce, then eventually go completely. Yes they can be symptoms of other things but the tests you've had done show that these symptoms are nothing!...It's the anxiety whats keeping the symptoms there and making you doubt everything!

I think anxiety can definitely make you feel depressed and being as though you're worrying so much then it's only normal for you to be feeling tearful and emotional...Please try and relax! My phone is full of relaxation/hypnosis apps that I listen to when I'm feeling anxious and they do help - Sometimes not for long but they do take the edge off the anxiety a bit! You could try doing something like that!...Hope you start to feel better really soon!

[zippy]

Thankyou Nadine. It's the brain fog I can't handle and it makes me not think clearly and rationally. One day it's not as bad and I don't cry and I think rationally and the next it's worse than ever and I am back to thinking something serious is going on and I am losing my mind. I keep thinking how do they know I haven't got a tumour just by looking in my eyes and doing Neuro tests.

[nadine02]

I know it's hard to believe what they say because anxiety plays horrible tricks with our minds, but the medical people do know what they're talking about and know what signs to look for!...When you're worrying really badly about something (Health, money, work etc) then it seems to take over your mind and make you unable to think about anything else doesn't it? This will cause the brain fog and the more you worry the worse it will feel! I know it feels like you're going through Hell right now but things will get better.

I try to think of symptoms I've had before that have sent me into a complete panic and made me think the worst! At the time it's horrible and they really do make you feel like there's something seriously wrong but they do go away eventually don't they?...Anxiety sucks!!

[zippy]

I know I have been bad before with other similar symptoms and every time I say no it's different this time I didn't have such and such symptoms last time. I feel like I am breathing through thick air and not getting enough breath. I am going to my gp on Monday to ask for help I think because it's killing me feeling like this. I have 2 girls 9 and 10 who see me crying etc and I don't want that. Stupid vertigo kicked me off into a downward spiral thinking I have a brain tumour and all the symptoms you get are associated with what you fear you have.

[nadine02]

Like the title of your thread says...It does seem never ending but everything you're saying sounds like anxiety! Over the years we must have thought we had so many illnesses when we haven't but each time we get a symptom we always think the worst!...And then we think "but what if it is something serious this time". I don't know if you're the same but I notice every little ache, pain, twinge, sensation in my body and every one of them makes me feel anxious..I think everything is the worst thing it could possibly be. Then we focus on it so much that it just seems to get worse and worse and brings on other symptoms which as you say seem to be associated with what we are fearing at the time!...It's horrible!

Are you on any anxiety meds? I'm not at the moment but I keep thinking about going back on them because like you, my anxiety is sky high lately. I've also got 2 daughters age 14 and 12 and I hate them seeing me upset or worrying about everything...The last thing we want is for our kids to become anxious too! All I can say is try and do something to take your mind off things - I know how hard that is, but the more we think the worse it seems to get.

[zippy]

No not on any meds. I know I am tuned in to every ache, pain and sensation. It's my head that's worrying me, can't think straight and feel odd like I cant see properly but I can because I have been to the opticians and they checked everything, pressure behind eye etc and all was fine.
I was just saying to partner I need help mentally with tabs or something.