CBT/Eating Disorders Specialist

[fran43]

Well I went to the assessment.

Load and loads of questions, why I wanted help, how I wanted that help etc. 50 mins is in the scheme of things not a lot of time. Yet feeling unreal, anxious etc is was like I had spent the whole day there and she never smiled once.

I start therapy sessions with her on Thursdays. She is convinced I have the determination to beat the anxiety etc. I did say that despite all the things I had and am doing (like driving, going to a supermarket for a few items (reluctantly I admit, stopping taking pills to lose weight) etc I could not pat myself on the back for.

So she then asked whether what she had said ie well done had had on my feelings, I said it had gone right over my head. I guess some work (if not a lot is needed).

I feel :( that the NHS is not paying for this and we are having to fund it ourselves. My husband sees it as a priority which promps more guilt about what else we can be using the money for. It seems like a no win situation when it comes to finances. I will continue to go around in circles if I dont get help right now, I feel unable to wait for the NHS to kick into action.

Anyway, I have done enough venting. Just wanted you all to know how it went.

Love Fran XX

[Rob]

Good that you have started. Please let me know how it goes as I have started a book "Overcoming Panic" recently usign CBT to hopefully overcome panic attacks.

What is youe eating disorder? Mine is having difficulty swallowing believing that I may choke which causes a panic attack.

Would love to know if yours is similar...

[Karen]

Hi Fran

Just wanted to wish you good luck for tomorrow.

Do you think you will be able to work with her? It is important to find a therapist you can build a rapport with.

Let us know how you get on.

Karen xx

[fran43]

Hi Rob and Karen

Rob

My eating disorder is that I dont want to eat as I feel I will get obese. I am eating but already feel obese and consequently my self-esteem has completely gone, along with everything I thought I had under "control".

Hi Karen

I hope I will get on with her and begin to build a rapport with her. It is my life/future I am talking about here. I just wish she would smile a little and not sit back taking everything seriously. I hate the 'silence gap' that occurs but perhaps that is something to talk over with her.

I will let you know how it goes tomorrow. I am already dreading it to be honest.

Take care of yourselves.

Lots of Love

Fran XX