I don't know how longer I can cope :'(

[HM2012]

I'm returning to work tomorrow after having 5 days off
after suffering from a panic attack in the work place.
I have panic disorder, depersonalization/derealization.
I started this new job only two weeks ago & now i'm terrified
of going back tomorrow for it to happen again.
I've been enjoying this job so much & for this to happen
just completely knocked my confidence right back down.
The people at work think i've been off with a 'sickness bug'
I can't tell them the real problem because i'm afraid of being
sacked/fired :( I want to work for money & want to make a life
for myself but this mental illness is destroying my life.
Please does anyone have any tips about me returning
to work tomorrow & what I should do? :'(

[tessasuzanne]

I don't know if you saw this in your other post...?

You need to hold your head high and walk back in there, you CAN do it.
I too have recently started a new job, and ended up having a bit of a breakdown a month in, handing in my notice and withdrawing it again! I am still there, still working, still fighting the anxious thoughts and feelings but I am WINNING! Every positive day you have back at work will strengthen you to face the bad days.
I was also very honest with my employers and told them about my anxiety, fortunately they have been very understanding and worked with me to help me through this rough patch. I can't say that every employer will be as sympathetic, I've met a few small minded people in my time, but if you feel you can deal with them knowing and would be reassured by the fact that they do I would definitely recommend being honest.
Wishing you well.

[HM2012]

On the verge of a breakdown.
I don't think I can do this anymore :'(