so i have no choice but to get diagnosed between now and may 6th and lord have mercy the thought of even doing that is making me panic a bit agh its such a paradox "need to be diagnosed can't leave the house though HHHHH" i'm also pretty scared to be given a diagnosis because i don't want to lose motivation to get any better. also do you think they'll force medication on me? i'm gonna go have a cry i think.