Hi,
During the past few years of suffering, I have had my share of sleepless nights and know I'm not alone in this, but it recently got to the point I can hardly function.
I think my latest bout of not sleeping is all to do with my being invited to a gathering in Kew Gardens this saturday. I have to be there at 10am, and since I am in the land of nod at this time, or have just woken up with in a very disturbed state, I was wondering how I was to achieve this. Although its only 15 miles away, I decided that a stay in a small hotel would be the answer as I'd be away from my home and all the negative feelings that it represents.
Anyway, Sunday evening my brother rings to say he cannot get a reply from my Dad's phone. He lives alone in a small flat and is 89 next month. On top of that, my brother (my only other close relative) was flying out early Monday morning for a week, so I'd have to cope with anything untoward myself.
I tried calling my Dad at 8.45pm but no reply. Hell!! I think that you can imagine I did not have the best of nights, thinking about funeral arrangements and things like that.
The next day I woke up very late (about 1pm) and one of the first things was to call my Dad. And there he was, sounding as fit as a fiddle!
That night I couldn't sleep again, but eventually did at maybe 7am. Next thing I know is looking at my bedside clock and its 2.40pm!!!! The rest of the day am like a Zombie and have little strength and pretty brain dead. I decide to ring the Samaritans and have a cry, and then later ring NHS Direct. Of course, they say see your GP and have seen him today. Unfortunately, not my usual one, but he has given me a few sleeping pills.
So I'm not very active on here at the moment.
I know pills are not the answer to this, and just need a mental feel-good boost. I'm sure a few of you know what I mean here, and that you are caught in a viscious circle.
Thanks for listening.
Ray
http://www.anxietyrelease.org.uk/
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance, I hope you dance.
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