I have a 13yr story which I will try to summarise...
2001 diagnosed PTSD after suffering symptoms for a year as a serving police officer.......breakdown......prescibed tricyclics,SSRI's, NSRI...all had VERY bad side effects....after 6 months citalopram worked but only in small doses (10-20mg).
11yrs later after various therapies, CBT,EMDR,relaxation, mindfulness I felt well enough to come off citalopram (under GP supervision). That was just over a year ago. For the first 6 months I felt great. Life was good. Part-time job. Small pension.Content.Zopliclone at night only.
As the winter set in my mood changed. I felt low,anxiety started coming in waves on a daily basis. But I "managed" the symptoms.
5 weeks ago I was hit with flu....proper flu...after a week in bed I developed a chest infection...antibiotics....a week later, one morning the anxiety could not be controlled. I truly felt like I was losing my mind. I called for help. I was admitted to a Psychiatric Hospital. The scariest thing that has ever happened to me and trust me I have been in some pretty horrific situations as a police officer!!!
After 4 days of intensive assessment in hospital I was prescribed the wonder drug Pregabalin My diagnoses ..Acute PTSD/GAD/Post Viral Fatigue....NOT depressed. My low mood was a result of constantly having to fight anxiety!!!
I started on 50mg twice a day. I was given a LONG list of side effects and told that this drug had to be introduced slowly. The side effects...basically I felt drunk...without the benefit of Sauvignon Blanc!!! It was not pleasant but I was in a safe place with wonderful kind staff who took care of me a kept me "safe" when I felt all was going crazy in my head.
After 4 days the dose was doubled (150mgs twice a day)...drunk again.....BUT NO ANXIETY!!!!!! But still the Consultant said it needed to be 200mgs twice a day. So 4 days later it was put up again. This time the side effects were not so bad.
So after 18 days in hospital I am home with 24hr support from the outreach team.Which will continue until I decide I am OK on my own.
How do I feel?.........calmer than I have felt in 13yrs...truly.
I have Lorazepam if I have a bad attack (It's shorter half life, less addictive than Diazepam)but I have not had to use it so far!
I have engaged with the quite brilliant OT team and re learnt relaxation, mindfulness and other coping strategies. And I have listened to the advice of professionals in hospital. I still feel spaced out but that is getting better everyday!
I will keep you posted on my progress.
Thanks for reading. Hope it helps others on pregabalin