Thanks for all the encouraging replies about my earlier post titled I have had enough. I got some help from a psychiatric nurse who has given me tablets for my anxiety and depression as I was completely beaten by this and the most desperate and broken I have ever been. The swaying I was having that was causing the spiral of anxitey is apparently quite common in people with anxiety and depression. My body completley melted down with the constant stress and anxiety over the years. Hopefully I have the right medication and can begin to have a semi normal life. Take care and thanks