I just wanted to vent, sorry if this is not the correct place to do so. I just feel that talking or writing down how I am feeling helps.
I have suffered from depression and anxiety for about 2 years. I stopped taking my medication (citalopram) at Christmas without telling my doctor (I know, that was very stupid). I just ran out and never bothered going back for more as I felt okay. I felt fine for the first month but now I just feel worse than ever.
I'm upset because I feel stupid, I'm going to have to go back to the doctor to explain. I'm worried that he won't help now. But I now know the reason I felt 'fine' was the citalopram and I was silly to stop so abruptly.
I'm feeling incredibly anxious about everything. I feel down, negative, upset and can't see a way forward. I can't sleep, barely eat and my mind just runs in overdrive constantly.
I know that the meds will help me. I have been at my darkest point before and I got through it and I am going through a dark stage now and I know I will get through this too but it is so hard just now.
Does this ever get any easier?
Claire