Re: First experience of Citalopram
T&S, my own experience with citalopram and some other meds is that around week 2 is the roughest. That seems to be when the effects on thoughts begin and it takes a while for them to even out and start improving.
First of all, don't be afraid. Keep talking about it, describe it as best you can, and that will help. It's best if you have someone there to speak with, but if not then tell us! I find that disclosure really helps.
I wrote a bit about this in the other thread in this section, about the wired/tired feeling, the racing mind etc., you might have a look there. Know that you will have some unpleasant thoughts and mood swings and that is par for the course.
The way I rationalize this is that there is no need to fear the known: if you know it'll test you with some negative thoughts and anxiety, then you can keep reminding yourself that it is temporary, and that might help you set it aside. I don't think we can make the spontaneous negative feelings go away completely but we can head them off at the pass by being ready.
And yes.. unfortunately these things tend to come up around sleep times, which is when i suppose we're most vulnerable to negative thoughts.
I think it is really important to have some things that help you break through the negative thoughts... activities, for example. What you don't want to do is sit there and stare at the wall and fixate on your thoughts!
For me, doing something that engages my thought process... online chess, playing piano, exercise, talking to friends and family... work well to break through the fog.
Hang in there, you're near the point where you will round a corner and feel benefit. But it may get a bit rougher first, just temporarily.
I hope that you feel better soon.
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