here goes again

[karenp]

I went up to 5mg's after 10 days and just got hot flashes again, irritability when I first woke up, wanted to sleep a lot during the day time and a couple of real flat days but then I was much better. xxxx

[Sober2000june]

Thanks Karen,

I think i'll have another 3mg tonight then thatll be a week. so plan is 5 mg tom night and hopefully get plent sleep at weekend-Like thats going to happen with 3 kids.

anyhoo, thanks again for feedback.

[karenp]

Fingers crossed for you Paul and remember I am here if you have nay questions at all xxx

[Sober2000june]

Really finding it tough now; headaches, low, fuzzy. Hoping this improves soon as we are if to France on Wed next week.
.

[karenp]

Paul I hope you are ok and if you are in France now you are managing to enjoy it (:
Escitalopram used to make my mood very flat when I first went on it and the headaches were a prob for me too but I never hardly get them now but used to have to take paracetamol every day without fail.

[Sober2000june]

Hi Karen glad you're movingfwd. ive been struggling. on second days drive thro France i had to take diaz as i thought the dogs of hell were coming to drag me off. the first days drive from glasgow to Maidstone was ok but i think the lack of sleep on 1st night (5 1/2 hrs) really did a no on me. anyway its been a toil every day and a times felt like giving up on the meds. ive had no diaz today as i think its dragging me down even further. sad thing is first 3 days on 2.5mg were really promising but this is starting to feel like mind numbing exhausting hell again. azure skys a beautiful wife and 3 beautiful boys and i feel like this.
please tell me it gets better, even if its a lie.

wishing i was here

[chantelle]

Paul, it does & will get better....am just back from a wee hotel break with my hubby & kids. I was anxious all the time BUT the kids enjoyed the break and at the end of the day, all we do is for them. I was on escit before and it gave me back my life however dr reduced my dose and it crept in again! I am now on 20mg escit & have been since 1st April so hoping for a breakthrough any day.....keep positive, if you think each day is going to be a toil it will be - but if you think & speak positivity into the beginning of each day, such as "I'm going to have a great time today & make lots of beautiful memories for my beautiful family".....it will make the day easier for you!!! Enjoy your holiday....we always loved going to France....what part are you going to?

[Sober2000june]

Hi Chantelle,

We are at St Jean De Monts in the Vendee. Weather has been stunning and kids are loving it. Thanks for your feedback. We had a good night down the beach last night, all 6 of us - finished off with ice-creams all round. Dont get me wrong, i have been getting glimmers of positives at work sometimes where i have been able to concentrate. Anyhoo, going to try and have a productive positive day today.

keep in touch,
Paul

[Sober2000june]

Well, almost 3 weeks on 10mg and seeming to be able to concentrate a bit better in the office. Mornings still v hard with nausea, no appetite, but i force down a healthy breakfast to kick start my body. This itching i am getting is defo a mild allergic reaction, but in no way do i want to quit after hopefully making a bit of progress on 10mg. been taking antihistamines some nights, i think it makes the following day a bit harder. hopefully the itch will pass as the weeks go by.

Take care peeps

[Sober2000june]

Well, Just an update. I am now down to 5mg of escitalopram and i am to come off it and start Zyban. I dont smoke but i think the beleif is it'll maybe do something. TBH i think my shrink does not know what to do with me.It is not licenced as an anti d in this country but she had success with it when she wa in New Zealand. I am supposed to be starting it now but theres know way i could thro this at my system 6 days before christmas. I am now stating to worry it may send my anxiety into psychosis and the fact my GP mentioed the 0.1% risk of Seizure. Im statting to wonder if i should just wean of the escitalopram reallt slowly or just sit at 5mg for a while AHHHH! this ilness is hell on earth.


Sorry for the poor me but just really low and loosing what very little amount of faith I have.


take car folks

Paul