Escitalopram Diary at nearly two weeks

[bounceback11]

Hey sober

Good luck. If you need any advice or some support I'm here for you!

Take care
Ben

[Sober2000june]

Thanks Ben.

Take care,
Paul

[bounceback11]

Hey Paul

How's it going so far? Hope you're doing well!

I've just gone past the four week mark and looking back I'm definitely doing a lot better. Still having a lot of ups and downs though. What tends to happen is that the depersonalisation tends to kick in first and that leads to panic. Feeling a little jittery today but I made the mistake of drinking quite a lot last night so that's my own fault. On the plus side I have a job interview on the 24th so there's the potential that I will be able to get off night shift and into a job with a lot of customer interaction so that'll be a big help.

Take care guys!
Ben

[bounceback11]

Hey guys

As I've mentioned I work nights so I have a terrible sleeping pattern which mucks me up worse. In the past 48 hours I've only had 6 hours sleep so I'm feeling a bit weird at the mo. I feel if I could get a decent 8 hours a lot of my problems would be solved! Like I said yesterday depersonalisation is my problem at the moment I just need to push through this and things are gonna get a lot better!

Hope you're all well
Ben

[bounceback11]

Hey guys

Don't know what's going on with me today but I am having a terrible blip day! Woke up ok this morn after 5 and a half hours sleep and have slowly become more and more panicked! Been googling mad cow disease a lot this morn and am slowly starting to persuade myself that I have it again. My memory just feels really weird and jumbled perhaps its the depersonalisation playing tricks on me I dont know but I've gone and made a docs appointment about going onto 20mg of escitalopram so hopefully that will help me. Here's hoping this bad day passes soon.

Take care
Ben

[Sober2000june]

Hi Ben,
Hope you're bit better today. I see you said you had a lot to drink couple of days ago, that will defo have an effect on your mood. I would try and put the drink to one side just now until you get a bit more stable.

Take care,
Paul

[bounceback11]

Hi Paul

Nice to hear from you! How are you doing? I'm doing a lot better today I've been keeping myself busy playing golf and spending time with the missus so that's been helping. I'm trying to be very positive too. I'm suffering from a tingling scalp which I've been panicking about but hopefully I'll be able to overcome this soon. Having a physical symptom makes forgetting about your anxiety a lot harder but nevermind!
Thanks for the advice Paul you're totally right I should definitely stay off the booze it really doesn't help. I'll stay off it till I sort myself out!

Take care
Ben

[Sober2000june]

Sounds good Ben,

I'm not so great today, thinking of going upto 5mg now - been on 2.5 ish mg for 5 nights now. still not sure.

[karenp]

Ben let me know how you feel when and if you go up to 20mg's of Escitalopram. I really hope you feel better than you did now. I very rarely drink but did have 500ml's of wine the other week and was fine, then some lager a couple of weeks ago and was still ok but I have been on this meds for 7 months now.

[bounceback11]

Hey guys

Hope you're all good!

Karen I have gone up to 20mg as of today! Are you also on 20mg? I'm having a major blip at the moment I can't stop thinking about mad cow disease it's literally all I think about 24/7. Also can't sleep very well atm. Came home from work incredibly panicky this morn and ended up taking the last of some diazepam I had from a visit to a and e. slept for three hours and then woke up panicking and ended up getting an emergency doc appointment. Doc offered to sign me off work which I declined and told me to double my dose to 20mg! He didn't want to give me any sleeping tabs or more diazepam though which I would have liked but nevermind. Feel kinda relaxed at the mo gonna see my boss tonight and tell him what's been going on perhaps he can find me a job on days!

Take care
Ben