Re: My Diazepam withdrawal Diary
Thanks for all the replies everyone.
Made my next cut today as I have liquid diazepam now. This morning, instead of taking 1mg and 1mg in the evening, I took approx 0.75mg. A nice small cut SHOULD in theory be easier to handle. I will try one of these small cuts each week to still stick with the 0.5mg cut every fortnight.
The liquid diazepam tastes AWFUL! A mix between jagermeister and cough syrup. It makes my tongue rather numb too.
So as per normal, this dosage cut won't hit me for 48 hours so that will be Sunday night. I'm home alone Sunday as my dad is going to up Cardiff for me to get all my stuff. On fathers day too!!!
My dads laptop broke today. It was my old laptop. He can't afford a computer or laptop. So as a treat, I took out the last remaining scraps of my savings and bought him a tablet computer and leather case for it. Should arrive early next week. Most expensive gift I've ever given him or anyone I think!! I just wish I could give him more for all the things he's done for me.
Thanks for the exercise plans!! That's a really good idea and I will try to do little bits here and there so I'm not just sat in bed all day.
Symptoms to report - Been very very fatigued! Probably to do with the trouble I have getting to sleep, and then not having proper sleep cycles. It's just dreams. I guess the depression and the doing nothing all day is adding to that tiredness. Anxiety is fairly manageable but that's because I've just been in my room. Yesterday I went downstairs and I started to panic a bit because my DP/DR got a bit too much. That's still a constant problem too!! Wish I could shake that off and be a bit more connected with the world around me!!
I am eating plenty so that's not a worry. Probably too much seeming as I'm barely burning a single calorie!
Hopefully this diazepam cut won't be as bad as the last, although it's technically going to be around the same percentage of a cut so only time will tell. I'm going to try and savour how I felt today and remember that however bad this cut gets, I will be OK again.
Not long now until my stupid brain realises it's a few MGs short of diazepam!
Just remembered.... the withdraw symptoms best not bother me tomorrow as I have to drive my dad a mile away to pick up the hire van!!! EEEKK! Just remembered that..... ARGH!
Hope everyone here is OK
Steven x
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