I have not been on here much because I have been so busy I cannot breathe! Since May 10, I got married, went on my honeymoon, came home, started a new job, started a new internship separate from my job, started new classes at school, and moved to a new apartment.
I thought I was doing pretty well, but now it is all catching up with me. I had lots of trouble sleeping last night. Also had a pretty bad night sweat, which got my anxiety going even though I am pretty sure it is a side effect of my lexapro mixed with summer and anxiety.
Today I had supervision at school and my supervisor is so wonderful. She made me feel better about not feeling like I am good enough or skilled enough at my new internship and said it is normal to feel like that and the purpose is for me to learn while I am there anyway.
I am just very overwhelmed. I know why I am, just hard to find time for myself to relax and take care of myself. I am glad I am working as I need the money. I really enjoy the job too. It just has odd hours because it is at a hospital so a couple days out of the week I am very off because I either work an early morning shift or a late shift and it messes with my sleep schedule. Normally not a big deal, but my sleep is so on and off anyway that any disruption in routine can really shake it up for me.
All of this and I am forgetting about being married now! I have been doing all of the pain in the butt things with changing my name, going to motor vehicle (anybody in the US knows what a pain that is!), contacting everyone, etc.
Sorry for the long vent, just got a lot in my head that needed to come out! Thanks for listening