My whole life from my teens till now I have has bad luck, people can say it does not exist but it sure does if they were me. I go round and round in circles and I have a boyfriend who mocks my life at times but he says he is sorry. He thinks I love the way my life is but I dont. I work for my dad although my dad doesnt even talk to me. I am the black sheep in the family and seems like i always will be. I tried getting another job to prove myself but i get no call backs, i opted for volunteer work even but they make promises to call me and then they say they arent looking for anyone at the time. I had a minor brain injury at 17 and after that my emotion became a train wreck, i would cry and get this rage out of nowhere, i would become angry at the world. I sometimes still get like that, i have this fear of driving even i cant control my feet or i press the accelerator too fast, i dont have my own car and i dont earn alot. I am thankful for having a job with my dad even if its just answering the phones. But today i feel very down, my bf just reminded me of my life at home with my parents and my phone charger just stopped working and i dont have money for a new one :/ as i pay for my short courses that i am studying. I am broke, in tears and I feel like overdosing on pills. I do not want to be here.. i dont want to be compared to my sister or my cousins, i hate feeling ugly everytime i look in the mirror, im tired of people and their drama, im tired of trying to prove myself, im tired of trying to be normal.. i dont want to be here :((((