hey, just wanted to let you all know, until saturday i hadnt been out the house in 4 months, i even spent a month in bed not getting up unless i needed a wee. so anyways, i started having alot of trouble with my x, he grabbed me around my throat. so on saturday i came to live at my nanas. my dad and nana picked me up, and that was the 1st time iv been out. everyday since then iv been in the front garden for at least 3 cigs a day. and today i went all the way to the hospital (40 minutes in car to get there) and then went around jacksons. i also have eating phobias and have been living off of beens and rice crispies. but since moving into my nanas iv managed veg, mash, yourkshire puds, roast potatoes, chips, and cottage pie. im not ready for all foods yet tho, im so scared of choking. these probably seem like small things but cos i was completely house bound for 4 months they're big things to me. i still have times when i feel really bad, especially on a night. i think my biggest fear is going back to how i was, like having a panic attack or something and it completely throwing m back. i'm so scared of that. well thank you to anyone that has actually taken the time to read all of this. much love, michelle x x x.
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