Re: 6 weeks since my dad died its kicking in just needed a little support 💔
Hi,
I'm so sorry you are feeling so bad right now.
I'm sure you know that what you are going through is absolutely normal and there isn't a short cut. It is truly awful but it is true that as time goes by it gets easier to bear.
When my dad died, I found the best way was to have the cries as I needed, and then remind myself of a funny or lovely memory. In time you realise that those are your own special treasure from your time together, which nobody can take away.
You describe it really well, that feeling of absolute panic that the person has gone - but his genes live on in your body, his love lives on in your heart, and his memory lives on in your mind.
You have lost his physicality but everything else is still as it was: your love, your memories, what you meant to each other. I remember when my dad died, I realised that some people are just relieved when their father is no longer around, and I felt so lucky to have had such a special relationship.
Nobody can make this better but it sounds as though you are allowing yourself to FEEL the loss, and that is the best thing you can do right now.
Much love to you. xxx
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