So if anyone has read any of my posts you will now my father died 6 weeks ago I'm not having the best of days with it all I have at chest pains most days but tonight there kind of like a stinging pain both my arms are hurting well as I've started to feel panic inside I've realised I can feel myself slipping back to 18 months ago and that place I don't want to be I will admit myself to a mental home because I can not feel that level of anxiety and function with a family I really can't x