Safe usage?
Hey everyone,
My doctor prescribed me diazepam for my emergency moments. I have been off mirtazapine for 13 days now, and I'm still having patches of bad anxiety. My anxiety was off the scale today. I was VERY aroused by anxiety this week as my Dad was being tested for prostate cancer, and having Generalised Anxiety Disorder, I assumed the worst. He seems to be fine, but today I was having anxiety while I was intimate with my partner, anxiety when my Mum and Dad were a bit late coming home, anxiety when my boyfriend and I disagreed on what to do in a computer game we are co-playing, anxiety feeding the friggin' cat - it's driving me insane.
I realise, cognitively, that I've gotten aroused this week and am having a hard time coming down from that arousal. I am currently studying CBT, I am seeing a psychologist, and now that I have good health insurance, I am backed with heavy-duty psychiatric help if need-be. But I need to make sure that I'm covered and that I have the money for that help, and I need to organise things with my doctor next week.
Until then, all I have to help me through these rough patches is diazepam. Yesterday was my day out with my sister and a friend. I had a lot of anxiety, as I've developed irritation and agitation when in crowded public places. I never had that before. Anyway, before I left, I had 2.5mg of diazepam. I had woken up very depressed and anxious, and I was worried it was a codeine downer (yes, I take codeine, my doctor knows, I need it for my pain condition and I have seen lots of pain specialists, it's all that works without making me feel ill, I am careful not to take more than a certain amount a week). It evened me out for the rest of the day, but I still felt the anxiety a bit.
I feel like taking the other half now. I've been going about it like this: No more than 5mg a week at most. Ideally, spaced out further than 8 days a pill. Only for the worst of days.
Am I going about it right? It's all I have right now, and I have been trying my CBT for ages but it's just been such a shitty week that I'm feeling overwhelmed. I don't want to get addicted, but I really need help.
It was my birthday on Wednesday, too! LOL!
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Age: 33
Diagnosed: Depression, Assault trauma, Generalised Anxiety Disorder
Being Investigated: OCD, Adult ADD
Prescriptions: Fluoxetine, Amitryptiline, Mefenamic Acid.