Not sure if this is a success story or not...
Two weeks ago I met up with some friends from my photo group in Kew Gardens which I posted about.
But this last Sunday there was one in Bristol (100 miles away) which I really wanted to attend. I need to be with people yet knew it would be hard as I can't function in the mornings, I have attacks when away from my 'patch' and I wasn't really sure how I'd cope with staying away the night alone.
I booked the hotel and train last week and so there was no turning back!
The journey was hassle free, scenic on a lovely day. The hotel was great with good food. The meet up was great with friendly people, some of whom I met before and was fine with and the location and weather was great but I was just in such a state with high anxiety levels!
I really thought I'd calm down once I met the people on sunday morning, but that didn't happen...
I'm wondering if it was the size of the group that didn't help, as I was lucky enough to be sharing the same train with one of them on the homeward journey and that was so much more relaxing. I think I prefer one-to-ones and small groups - maybe I get more attention that way?
I have been stressed out the last two days, but my therapist says my weekend has been very healthy for me...One reason I decided to go is because otherwise I would just sit here and stew and regret not going. And I have to face the fear.
The weekend was also helped by a big-hearted lady on this site. Thanks for the texts mate
Cheers,
Ray
http://www.anxietyrelease.org.uk/
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance, I hope you dance.
~Mark Sanders and Tia Sillers