I'm in a bad way tonight I've been crying for hours the more I cry the worse I feel it just feels so bad 8 weeks have passed so quick but feels like yesterday I've had some of my dads belongings 😭😭😭 heart breaking i never thought missing someone could feel so bad I wish I could escape my feelings but I can't I don't no how much more I can deal with having to face death in this way when its my biggest fear is so real and raw :( sport for probably boring you all with this now but I feel so alone and desperate I don't no what to do xx