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  1. #1
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    Jun 2013

    Smile How I suppressed my HA

    As with many people on here I have been bombarded with every kind of imaging/blood test a PCP could throw at me. Crushing my fears for a short amount of time until something new surfaces.

    I got through a lot of high and low times. As of now my HA is at an all time low and its been that way for a while, but I've also been that guy on the floor wondering "What next", "this time it's for real". So if any advice I can offer will help someone even if its 1 person, great.

    My lowest point for me was shifting through my stool's (gross right?) for no reason at all. Not because I had a bad stomach ache or they were a weird color. I just wanted to make sure they were to my " standards". Although it would get my approval it didn't stop the fear of "what if" returning later.

    Eventually this led me to a PCP that my wife goes to as well. Did the CBC, urine, all that awesome stuff all blood work came back squeaky clean (Had 3 other blood works the same year from a different doctor, all same results). Urine came back with trace blood and protein.

    So as you can imagine I started googling everything I could about those particular symptoms. Google is a pretty awesome tool, but not for stuff like this. Long story short, Scared my self, Had an ultrasound ect 3 blood works, Chest X-ray 24 hour urine, no known cause was found so now I just sit around with it. Which led me to buying test strips off amazon and lesson 1!

    You are not a doctor (or maybe you, are but for me these were my thoughts). This was a big one for me, The realization that I am not qualified to be doing this. That if I screw something up ( which is very likely and always happened) How do I handle it? I remember I used a urine test strip and some of the pee dripped off the ketones pad and onto the bilirubin and all the sudden it was a color that wasn't even on the list for bilirubin. Do yourself a favor. If you are seriously concerned with something, get it checked out by a doctor you trust and do your best to be leave them. I mean there doctors.

    No amount of reassurance from someone else is going to be good enough to calm your worries. This is something I Worked on with my Social worker and it helped me wake up. All those times I asked my wife "do you think "I'm okay?" or my mother and father "Will I be alright?". Sure, Once you ask you think you are "reassured" but are you really? In my case all my ultrasounds and bloods works didn't mean a thing about a week after I got them. it was back on to my worry. The only thing that helped me was Self reassurance, only once I was able to reassure myself was I truly happy. Everyone is capable. Give it a shot! Try to go for a day without asking anyone if you're okay or "what do you think?" You will feel really good after

    Counseling, Something everyone should have regardless their issues, (at least that's my opinion). Counseling helped me out a lot, made a lot of breakthroughs and realized that my HA more or less came from my parents. My father who Is still to this day worried about his health destroyed his 20's with constant fear and dread of the "What if" factor. He is now 60 very healthy, and the torch seemed to get pasted to me.
    Another reason for me was the fact that my mother has diabetes. She's always had it, always will have it, and is knocking on her 50 year anniversary with it. So its pretty obvious as a child I was subjected to my fathers panic and my mothers constant tests. Counseling helped me work through my struggles and get to a point where I can be happy. If Counseling is available to you I highly recommend it!!

    This website is a wonderful resource where people with similar conditions can come together and talk about how much HA sucks. Its terrible, it destroyed my life for years, I'm 25 now and I don't want to waste anymore time with it.

    I don't post much on here, mostly browse. I like to read people's success stories and how they are coping with their issues but I see a lot that are just posting blood work and seeking reassurance from other forum members( I'm guilty of it to ), Which by all means is fine and is Their decision, I do not judge. But from my experience this only increased my anxiety was the opposite of therapeutic I can only recommend trying to reassure yourself.

    I don't think there is a cure for my HA, I believe it will always be there but I am now enjoying my life more and working on getting even better. I have taken Zoloft and Ativan for months and they are very helpful to me and have helped me cope with issues.

    You can't let this ruin and run your life I spent years worrying about mysterious illnesses and then almost died in a motorcycle accident. My time spent up to that point was wasted. If I died that day I would have had very little to show for it.

    I'm very new to posting here So I don't know all the rules, but there is a youtube video I would recommend to watch.
    Its called "Your time in Jelly beans" and it really put things in perspective for me.

    I hope No one takes this post the wrong way, I'm not trying to instigate anything. These are simply my Opinions and how I dealt with my Anxiety. Everyone has their own way of coping and I hope that I May have helped someone with there issues.

    Good luck and feel free to message me if you have any questions XD.

    Edit: The amount of spelling mistakes is remarkable. I am to lazy to fix them hopefully you can decode my jibborish.
    Last edited by Mose; 20-07-13 at 06:59.

  2. #2
    Join Date
    May 2013

    Re: How I suppressed my HA

    I really think it's important that people DONT google. Its a major trigger and every person, every medical case is an individual experience. So many symptoms are related to innocent medical conditions that while its ok to worry a little, ask your doctor to investigate.

    Mose, Im glad you pulled through also. I like to help those with HA these days. I really hope so many can look back over their past and realise they are far healthier than they believe.

  3. #3
    Join Date
    Aug 2008

    Re: How I suppressed my HA

    Great post Mose - and it is heartening to hear you have a found a way of managing your health anxiety. We gain valuable insights about how this illness takes hold, and it is interesting to hear how other members have gained control of their lives again.

  4. #4
    Join Date
    Mar 2013

    Re: How I suppressed my HA

    thanks for posting that Mose. Really glad that you found some causes for your anxiety and are showing others that it doesn't have to always be this way...

  5. #5
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    Apr 2003
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    Re: How I suppressed my HA

    Great post Mose thank you

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  6. #6
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    Oct 2012

    Re: How I suppressed my HA

    Some great advice for sufferers of HA. Thank you.

  7. #7
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    Nov 2009

    Re: How I suppressed my HA

    That was an excellent post Mose, congratulations. The key is to stop running away, to turn around and face it head on.
    Author, How to Beat Health Anxiety - "Absolutely the best book I have ever read on health anxiety. It was obvious that the author struggled with this in his own life and has overcome it. That's what gives hope to others who are going through this. Read this book if you are suffering! It will help you!" - Amazon Reviewer

  8. #8
    Join Date
    Jul 2013

    Re: How I suppressed my HA

    For me, I let my anxiety morph into thinking there is something very wrong with me that isn't related to my anxiety, when in fact I KNOW it all stems from it!!! Its hard to come back from the spiral that is "what if". I am having a very difficult time with it lately and being that I'm getting married in 2 weeks doesn't help :O

  9. #9
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    Feb 2014

    Re: How I suppressed my HA

    Solid advice. Not achievable for some of us, however. Not without professional help.

  10. #10

    Re: How I suppressed my HA

    I was fine for years until my toddler caught a stomach bug. Now I fear everyday someone's going to catch one. I don't even like going to the store. Help...

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