Hi all,
I've been dipping in and out of this site for several weeks now and found it to be really helpful in reading posts from fellow sufferers of this horrible, all consuming condition so decided to take the plunge and join.
I'm currently suffering with severe HA (had some form of it all my life). Last bad bout was around 6 years ago but has come back with avengance. Had a few months of stressful events family wise then contracted what they thought was a UTI but turned out that there was no infection, just traces of blood and white cells in urine. Several re-tests later and now I've had to go and see a consultant for further tests. 'Dr Googled' and the only thing that comes up about white cells in urine etc. is either bladder or kidney cancer so I am convinced I am now terminally ill and have got myself in a right state. To say I am terrified is an underestimate...went for an ultrasound yesterday on kidneys and pelvis and am waiting for a cytoscopy. I am convinced now that my phone will ring any minute to ask me to come in to see the doctor to get the 'bad' news...I feel like I'm losing it.
I am on Citalopram daily already and have tried CBT (useless) and am trying hypnotherapy as I don't want to be this person anymore...it's a living hell.
It does help to know that there are other people out there who feel the same from time to time. I feel for us all.