I've had the terrible lump in the throat feeling for ages now, almost a year and over that time it has tended to come and go, often not being noticeable for weeks, but then it will come back more or less. Sometimes it feels like the muscles in my throat are constricting, while other times it feels like I have some food or something stuck. The doctors told me in Feb that it was most likely down to stress, but I just cant get the fear of cancer out of my head.
The feeling has been back lately and my wife and my Mum keep telling me that I'm always highly strung out, I'm a worrier and that they are worried about my fixation/phobia with my health. I've been feeling pretty run down lately too which is fueling my fear. I have no other symptoms other than this throat thing that comes and goes and feeling a bit low.
My Mam and wife say that its probably the stress from starting University full time, being in a town I dont particularly like and losing my Dad a few months ago (from cancer). It's beginning to really bring me down, the constant worry of whether I'm ill or if its just my mind playing tricks. I know I have posted most of this before, but I'm starting to wonder whats real and what is'nt.
Please, please if you have any words of reassurance, I could very much use them right now.
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I want to go up to my anxiety, smile, put my arm around it and say to it caringly, 'Hey! How are you? How's your day been?'
Then, just as its about to answer me, I wanna throw a sack over it and give it a hiding within an inch of its life.
That would be nice.