Hi there after reading all the posts on here I see that most people have had there symptoms and fears diagnosed and had there minds put at rest but I never have because I won't go to my doctors because that is one of my fears going to the doctor because then they will send you for tests and that is my biggest fear so I just don't go , 14 months ago something happened to my back at work I have lived in pain ever since every day had some relief sometimes but always comes back since Xmas this year it has got worse so much so I spend most the day sitting or laying down with a heat pad and pain killers I'm just suffering really my husband trys to help me but he knows I won't go anywhere because I'm too scared some will read this and think I'm mad what a waste of life being in pain all the time I would think that if it was somebody else but what I've got now is because I have left it so long and it has turned into something serious it my fault it's just driving me mad x