I feel so stupid right now! my doctor gave me some diazepam yesterday to calm me down until my counselling starts. I been thinking today I am so cross with myself for all the hours and hours of research I have done online regarding my symptoms and self diagnosing advanced cancer! why have I put all this information into my mind and linking my symptoms? why haven't I just listened to the doctors? ignorance really is bliss and I've gone and ruined it. I probably don't have cancer but now it's inevitable I will have to have test after test to rule it out cos it's at the back of my mind. I had a screaming match with my GP yesterday and he sent me for some blood tests as a last straw and told me these 'new' tests will show something up if there is anything wrong. He said he would phone me last night if something was wrong and I haven't heard so guess that's good news. I have calmed down a bit and I think I can at least try move on until my CT scan but just why oh why did I put all this information in my mind??? even if it turned out I had cancer in a few weeks time, I've done myself no favours by reading so much! wish I could forget everything ! does anyone else wish they just hadn't read into stuff?