Depression, anxiety and PTSD coping

[aglaja]

Hello

The welcome sticky note said to introduce myself first, so here i go...
In a nutshell, I suffer from severe depression and anxiety, almost certainly related to PTSD cause by childhood sexual abuse. I am 24 now and I ave tried tackling these things a number of times but it seems that I always end up in a cycle of denial and the next time the problems resurface they are just massively worse. On paper, my life looks alright. I have amazing friends and a supportive family, I just started a phd in a subject i'm passionate about. However, earier this year my PTSD flashbacks became so bad I could not sleep anymore and added to my longstanding underlying depression that lead to me attempting to kill myself. SInce then I had some amaing talking therapy which helped a lot with the PTSD but the underlying depression prevails and yet again I find myself unable to function. That means one of the most challenging parts of of my day is taking a shower, let alone going to University or god forbid socialising. Most days I cannot get myself to look in a mirror. I dont know why. I'm not unhappy with the way I look, most people would probably say i'm attractive, but it's a connection to my emotional reality that I cant bear. So today I went to a GP at my new university and she prescribed me citalopram. I've wanted to go on anti-depressants for a long time but my parents always deterred me, so i'm hoping this will help. I also deactivated my facebook account because it is just too much for me at the moment. I feel like I need to very slowly break down my life at the moment and then slowly rebuild it, somehow conquering my numerous fears in the process. I would love to chat to people who are in similar situations with regards to the depression and I would also be happy to talk to people who are going through PTSD from sexual abuse since I have managed to conquer a lot of aspects of that.... that's it for now

cheerio and thanks for reading,
aglaja

[janice52]

have been diagnosed with globus hystericus last week, but today i cannot stop crying and constantly feeling light headed, feel like theres something in my throat but there is nothing there, waiting on a scan on my lower left side,have had blood tests, urine tests came back clear, all i want to feel is happy and i havnt for 3 months, what can i do to help myself

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hi i havnt had it as awful as you, but i hope you feel better soon, i recently got myself a job and finding it hard just to even get there, when am there i cant think straight and feel light headed all the time,it must be one of the most traumatic feelings i have ever had, i keep thinking i am going to die, i do hope oyu get help and feel better soon.

Hello

The welcome sticky note said to introduce myself first, so here i go...
In a nutshell, I suffer from severe depression and anxiety, almost certainly related to PTSD cause by childhood sexual abuse. I am 24 now and I ave tried tackling these things a number of times but it seems that I always end up in a cycle of denial and the next time the problems resurface they are just massively worse. On paper, my life looks alright. I have amazing friends and a supportive family, I just started a phd in a subject i'm passionate about. However, earier this year my PTSD flashbacks became so bad I could not sleep anymore and added to my longstanding underlying depression that lead to me attempting to kill myself. SInce then I had some amaing talking therapy which helped a lot with the PTSD but the underlying depression prevails and yet again I find myself unable to function. That means one of the most challenging parts of of my day is taking a shower, let alone going to University or god forbid socialising. Most days I cannot get myself to look in a mirror. I dont know why. I'm not unhappy with the way I look, most people would probably say i'm attractive, but it's a connection to my emotional reality that I cant bear. So today I went to a GP at my new university and she prescribed me citalopram. I've wanted to go on anti-depressants for a long time but my parents always deterred me, so i'm hoping this will help. I also deactivated my facebook account because it is just too much for me at the moment. I feel like I need to very slowly break down my life at the moment and then slowly rebuild it, somehow conquering my numerous fears in the process. I would love to chat to people who are in similar situations with regards to the depression and I would also be happy to talk to people who are going through PTSD from sexual abuse since I have managed to conquer a lot of aspects of that.... that's it for now

cheerio and thanks for reading,
aglaja