Re: Abuse: have I been ignoring the cause of my anxiety? (may find uncomfortable)
Hi, I would say this is almost definitely a huge factor for you.
I hardly remember my childhood, which always puzzled me - and then I began to realise something had happened to me. I don't know what and I have never dug around for memories, I am sure they will come if I need them. I do have memories (shared by my sister, who witnessed it) of almost being killed by my mum, and I have been told by two counsellors that I do present as a classic 'sexual abuse survivor'. I have never wanted to create false memories so I have dealt with it very gently.
You, however, do have memories and that is a great help in fact, even though it must be awful. You have been incredibly brave sharing it here, and you are believed, as you can see. I think contacting the NSPCC is a great idea. You are at the point where those things are ready to be 'heard' and dealt with. Well done, keep your nerve! x
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