Hi all, it's been a long time since I posted on No More Panic. I joined in 2009 when my anxiety and depression got out of control and destroyed my life. I went through hell for months before I started to gradually feel slightly better. I've had medication, hypnotherapy, counselling and CBT, with varying degrees of success: the medication was effective against depression, the CBT has helped with the anxiety.
It turns out I have asperger syndrome (a form of autism). My life started to make sense. Suddenly I was making giant leaps in my recovery. I've been in a relationship for a few months and I have become a popular, productive member of the team at work*. My IQ seems to have gone up by 40 points since I am no longer preoccupied with my problems (mainly because most of them have been resolved!) and I am now, finally, making significant progress in my quest to be an author. All of this has taken a lot of hard work where before I'd give in and avoid things or stay in bed.
I am cross-tapering off mirtazapine and onto sertraline 50mg, the lowest dose. Today is day two. Some of the unpleasantly familiar SSRi side effects are back, but I feel pretty confident that I am ready for them.
If people are interested I might pop back here now and again to record my progress of life on the lowest dose of meds: will I relapse like I did in 2011, or have I finally become strong enough to make it? And why am I making this sound like a low-rent reality show?
*I hope so anyway; I'm not allowed to join in when they do crosswords because I keep shouting the answers out while people are still reading the questions.