Long story short my parents divorced when I was 4, and my Uncle is like a father to me. This past week my Uncle had suddenly go sick, he was rushed to the hospital, and put on life support. ( I can't eat, sleep, or breathe) My Uncle has a living will, and did not want any kind of life support, my Aunt is supporting that decision, and all life support was removed today. This is breaking my heart. I feel so sick wondering when I am going to get that dreadful phone call, sick for My Uncle, sick for my Aunt, and family. Then I am petrified of the funeral. I do not do well at those things, it freaks me out! I am panicking over seeing him, and my family. On top of it that anxious thinking of when I am there saying to myself "yep, that's going to me" (because I identify with it) petrified of death, and the dead!!!!! I feel like I'm dying! I am a nervous wreck. UGHHHHHHH How will I get through this. I hate this. He was supposed to live forever. Debbi