I can't write for longer than a few lines at once. I am trying to write an epic novel about an ordinary man being chosen to save the world from an insane alien who wishes to simply kill all life he can come across. I am writing the fourth chapter first since its the chapter i have the most ideas for and i think i will be comfortable doing it out of order (going back and revising chapters when i think the plot has changed too much in other chapters) But yesterday i drank some beer and it made me slightly drunk (i was still thinking straight, but my inhibitors were lowered and my motor skills were a little dulled), working on the script wasn't too hard for me at that moment, but i only did a page's worth at least. I tried writing more today after getting some advice from a writing forum (sadly i rarely get a chance to talk to people about my work, its why i want more social support to see if it will help me motivation), but its going too slowly. I have been thinking of this idea since at least 2010 but i have been dying to get it done since. Only the other day i started writing this novel version of it (originally a crappy fanfiction esc story i did in 2009, then an unfinished screenplay, now trying to be a proper novel level story) and i have only done 11 or so pages.
Ugh, i feel tired and drained right about now. I haven't been truly happy in the past two days either with none of the chemicals that is induced by happiness being introduced into my body. Life is getting too boring and i still feel like a baby right now despite being 17.