Panic. They Took Christine Away
I'm in an awful way with depression and anxiety. I got to my appointment on time today only to find out that I couldn't see anyone because there is a Junior Doctor's strike on around the country. I really needed to see Dr. Kirrane today because I'm not feeling one bit good in myself. I still miss Aeneas so much. I know we didn't always see eye to eye, but he was good to me at times. He wasn't all bad despite causing me anxiety on a few occasions.
Anyway, back on topic. I got my Clopixol injection today from Christine and just found out that they are taking her away from me as a nurse. She informed me today that a new nurse called John will be starting next week and taking over my case. I can't possibly explain how much anxiety and fear this little bit of news has caused me.
So, Aeneas is gone, Christine has been taken away from me and now I have a new nurse that I have never even seen before. I'm up the walls and stressed to the core. Do you think this new guy will read through my file before he meets me? I want him to know how to approach me. I had to take a 0.25mg Xanax when I got home because the news really hit me hard. I'm still panicking about this. I was settled in Christine's care and now they have gone and upset my whole routine.
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Diagnosis:
Borderline Personality Disorder
Bipolar Disorder
Generalized Anxiety Disorder
Panic Disorder
Medication:
Cymbalta 90mg
Seroquel 600mg
Lyrica 500mg
Clopixol 200mg (Injection)
Zimovane: 7.5mg
Self Help Books:
Mindfulness: Borderline Personality Disorder
The Dialectical Behavior Therapy Workbook
Cognitive Behavioral Therapy
Mindfulness: Live In The Moment
When Panic Attacks
The 10 Best Ever Anxiety Management Techniques