so here i am, day 3 of week 4 of Citalopram 20mg... for depression and anxiety, both severe
first week was mostly a "class A" drug experience, just weird
second week, complete mind f*ck of emotions
week 3, levelling out but numbness and depersonalisation but no bad feelings
week 4 - HELP ME
i've got a doctors appointment for tomorrow morning
i'm wired all the time but my eyes ache through being tired. i cant fall asleep at night, its like my eyes physically wont shut, but when they do, i feel my eyeballs almost rolling and straining, i open my eyes and my focus is completely gone.
this is day 24 since starting tablets, and last night for the first time i cried. only a very brief episode maybe 2 minutes and i stopped like a switch had gone, and havent bee able to cry again since... strange.
i feel sick and have done for a few days, morning or night. Food makes me sick, but i ened something in my stomach to actually throw up when i want to be sick if that makes sense?
although i feel this wired feelingm and emotional numbness, i also feel though like the medication is wearing off already? This can;t be it settling because i am, starting to feel like i did before i got on them... i suddenly feel so down and scared and completely don;t know what to do with myself at all... i know im going doctors tomorrow but i just wanted to share my experience so far...
maybe i need an upped dose? Can i just ask for a higher dose or will they know by the above i need a higher dose?
is it just not working on me? what else is there? whats next?
i'm not by any means givine up, befoire this week 4, i have had the best couple of weeks in a long time, so i know its possible to not feel below rock bottom...
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