hi there tiff
Sorry to hear that you are suffering so, i wish i had a magic wand to remove this horrible condition for everyone. I too am new to this and have only really had 3/4 major attacks in the last year but they are very hard to shake off.
It sounds as though you just carry on regardless no matter how your feeling and i suppose this is all you can do, but that in itself is quite a achievment. i have 4 kids 2/4/12/15 and they have no idea what im going through. On occassions i have mild attacks which make me uncomftable in their presence so i go to the loo wet my face and and try to compose myself then like you carry on regardless. i am thankful for bedtime as that is you time and can relax fully,make the most of it.Also thankful for this site and find expressing my thoughts helpful. I must take the step to see doctor about this though. i really wish you well and hope your situation improves for you.