Hello all. Newbie here. Wanted to see if anyone has experienced what's been happening to me over the last few months
I bought my first flat in October. Was excited leading up to it, though a bit nervous at the same time. The day after I moved in I found a few problems with the place which triggered what Ive been told by the doctor is basically episodes of severe anxiety.
It started with worries about the plumbing. Then woodworm. Then dry rot. Then I worried about the place getting cold because of rubbish windows. You name it, any kind of home related problem, I have likely worried about it at some point.
I was on Mirtazipine (for depression) up until April last year. I had been on it for 7 years and came off it because I felt like I didn't need it anymore. Because the worrying got so bad and because I can't take sick leave at the moment I went to the doctor to see what I could do. Was given beta blockers at first, which didn't do much. Then they tried fluoxetine and citalopram (separately), both of which made the anxiety ten times worse in the first few weeks and I didn't feel like I could risk keeping on with them. I was also given sleeping pills (zopiclone and tamazepam, again separately) because I wasn't sleeping, at one point I didn't sleep for 4 or 5 nights in a row. The sleeping pills didnt work so I decided to ask the doctor to put me back on Mirtazipine as I knew that atleast that would put me to sleep.
So its December now, I've been on the Mirtazapine for a few weeks and it seems to be doing the job. No severe anxiety episodes and I'm sleeping again. Unfortunately I still worry about the flat. I don't know if what I'm worrying about is rational or irrational but sometimes it gets to the stage where I just want to sit and cry. I'm so miserable at the moment. The place is freezing and when the wind gets up (its been pretty windy lately) I can't even bare to be in the place. I've gone from being a bit of a loner to desperately relying on friends and my partners mum and dad to give me a bed for the night.
I'm basically at the stage now where I want to sell the place because I've had enough. I know its early days for seeing the full benefit of the Mirtazipine but I cry when im driving home from work because I know I have to go back and if im lucky enough to have an excuse not to be there for a few nights I cry when I get back because I know I'm back to reality.
Anyone been through this? Some words of wisdom would be great.