I broke up with my girlfriend last night after a year of constant thoughts of breaking up and not loving her. I was so tired in my own mind I has to get relief. I thought breaking it off would spur thoughts and feelings of love back but I was empty.
I cried and periods where I thought 'what the hell have I done' and now I don't know if I have made the wrong decision.
I have the inability to feel emotion at the moment and I'm scared if we get back together I will never be happy.
I left because I couldn't take anymore bad thoughts.
I don't know what's real and what isn't anymore.