Of everything?
If I'm being honest I'm looking for people to come forward and agree with me and admit they do it too.
I am a catastrophe thinker. I don't just think of what could happen, I blow things well out of proportion. The thing is it I keep it all to myself, I'm pretty sure if I didn't then people would just see me as a major drama queen.
For example- I go for a smear test, as I'm leaving I convince myself that this time they'll discover the cancer or something else sinister.
I got into a car with a friend who sat behind me, she didn't put her seatbelt on and I kinda convinced myself she was trying to kill me
My child plays in the garden with his friends and I convince myself someone will come snatch him and I check constantly that he is still there.
The thing is I'm really embarrassed about this, it all sounds pretty standard on these forums I know, but for instance the other day I convinced myself I wouldn't have long left, I was in tears, I was working out how my family would cope with out me, I was mentally planning my funeral
I know that this isn't 'normal' thinking but can anybody else relate??? I run with my thoughts and turn them into a huge big deal that all seems so real.
I have been diagnosed with OCD and anxiety and possibly PMDD. I'm on no medication as it scares the life out of me incase it makes me worse or gets me hooked.
I guess I'm really looking for reassurance that I'm not (for want of a better word) crazy