The next step in my CBT workbook is exposure therapy. I've been reading ALS stories because it is my number 1 fear. Now that my head is a bit clearer I can read the stories and feel for the people who are suffering with that horrible disease instead of thinking about just me. My dragon is begging me to feed it but so far no goes. The irrational thought is still there but i find myself getting more angry than panicky. I want to be free of this and I want to enjoy life. I can't do that thinking about death. We are all going to die one day anyway. I read this line in a graphic novel recently and I say it to myself "life is the lock and death is the key. Open it up and then you are free." Tonight I am doing another exposure therapy and I have to admit I'm a bit nervous. It's watching a scary movie alone. I used to love scary movies but haven't watched one through in 2 years. Sounds silly but this is a big step. Just waiting for my daughter to fall asleep. Thanks for the ongoing support everyone