What just happened?!

[LunaLiuna]

Hello everyone,

I honestly can't believe what just happened, I went out for a walk and managed to walk past loads of people. Not only that, I bumped into an old freind and felt fine!!!!

I don't understand after how I've been feeling over the weekend and before. I've somehow managed to do this. I guess the non thinking from the medication has a good side..

I still don't like the medication but I'm amazed. I should of crumbled and ran away. I probably felt like 10% anxious, and that was because my hair kept getting in my face. I feel almost like I want to go out again?

This is kinda weird, it's not normal to go from how I was to this is it?

My psychiatrist is here in half an hour so I'll mention it to him along with the other stuff.

Just wanted to post because I'm confused..

Hope everyone else is doing well!

[MrAndy]

dont be confused be happy !

[Phuzella]

[LunaLiuna]

But it doesn't feel right :s

Three years and then it just disappears? It's a pretty big shock..

[MrAndy]

But it doesn't feel right :s

Three years and then it just disappears? It's a pretty big shock..

just go with it............

[CeeCeeCee]

Luna, maybe it's because you have been so bad the last few days that coping with going out and being like a 'normal person' was easier after feeling how you did. Like you couldn't get any lower so the only way was up? Also, if like here, the sun has been shining then I think it acts like a switch that turns on your zippedy-doo-dah (ish) side? Take energy from it and let it help you move forward.

[LunaLiuna]

Yeah the sun has been out, it's great

Thanks Cee, it's added a little more weirdness to everything though. Do you think I should go out more? or not push myself and just let it happen? I did have my sister with me, I was taking her to feed the ducks so maybe that was a factor in it..

[Phuzella]

Don't feel like you have to go out more, but do if you want to. Play it by ear. The sun does help a lot though
after all the bad weather.

[LunaLiuna]

Don't feel like you have to go out more, but do if you want to. Play it by ear. The sun does help a lot though
after all the bad weather.

Thanks Phuzella, my psychiatrists here now so I'll be back later.

[ankietyjoe]

Don't question it too much. This is just part of recovery.

It's likely your brain will tell you that it was just a one off experience next time you try, but it's important to not get disheartened if you feel like crap next time you go out. It really doesn't matter.

I'd say keep pushing to go out and do 'normal stuff'. You're the best one to judge how much you can take on any given day, and the days where you feel like shit and still push your mental boundaries are the one that you put in the recovery bank.

Glad you had a good day though, just accept it as part of your journey