Before the sertraline I tried really hard to focus on the positives, downloaded apps on my phone, meditation and hypnosis and cbt and gratitude apps. I tried to keep myself going. But I've just lost the motivation to do or think anything mrandy. I feel like I have given up.
Before this happened I was a really strong, confident, determined person. I am a lone parent to my kids and worked full time too, cooked fresh food from bbc good food website, kept the house clean and tidy, took pride in my appearance. Now, I am nothing. So consumed by fear and anxiety, I can't face the day when I wake.
It's so hard to focus on the positives MrAndy, when noone can guarantee they will work and that little voice in the back of my mind says, this is permanent.
I want to stop being a burden on my family. I haven't been able to spend a single night on my own since it happened. My mum and my ex husband are basically having to babysit me. Their lives have changed because of me. My children bev been uprooted due to moving to and fro town thanks to my abusive ex. I think if I go into hospital, at least no one has to change their lives for me.