Laying in bed with tears in my eyes

[ryangreen]

I had a pretty good day today with very little thoughts of my health. I enjoyed lunch with my wife and hanging out with my twin brother for a few hours.

Came to bed after my shower, journaled and then it hit the wave of panic hit me I won't be here tomorrow I can feel it in my bones if I close my eyes I'm taking the long sleep and never going to see my wife again, I am trying to stay awake and keep my eyes open so I can stay safe but they are getting heavy and I'm scared to close them

[Phuzella]

I've felt like that many times, I dreaded the night times and going to bed. But I'm still here.
Try to think of the good things that happened today, and the things you're grateful for. Not easy but give it a go.
It can get better, sleep well