Dying Swan- I have to ask you a question: are you male or female? I need to know that that I can imagine you in my mind as I'm writing)
An hour ago I took oxazepam because I just couldn't stand it any longer. need to go to GP tomorrow to ask for more oxazepam for the rest of the week, just in case. Todays feelings: night sweats, vivid dreams, 3 hours sleep, depersonalization, derealisation, feeling on the edge, feeling that I' ll die or I'm already dead but I just don't know it- stupid- I know), blurred vision etc. so nothing really new. I try to keep positive and imagine myself in couple weeks time feeling happy, and by 'happy' I mean normal. that is my concept of happiness now Although I don't know if I'll survive till tomorrow and what I'll do if Citalopram will not work for me? looking for new meds again? No, I don't even go there. Kim and Dying Swan-I think about you often so keep me updated. It's a shame that we don't live in the same place- it would be fun)