is suicide an option? if u can't get help?

[peter245]

hi look at my other questions if u know nothing about me.
i need help with shyness/social anxiety/general anxiety
i'm 15 and need some help
when i was going to the mall with my mum on Monday
i expected to be great.. but i didn't know what i was up for
when people were Approaching me i started blushing my face Didn't go red.. i just start smiling and it becomes very tense.. i feel very embarrassed to be looked at. in front of 100 people at the mall
one person looked at me and said what the hell are you looking at
i can't sit down and look away i have to stare with peripheral vision whatever its called, i come of as creepy my mum 'said what the hell are you doing why are you acting all scared relax' it really made me stressed..
i also start shaking if i have to meet an attractive girl
i can talk at school see neighbours.
i have no friends i'm introverted timid shy, the mall felt scary the world seemed very strange.. now to the general anxiety i fear if my mum dies and it ruined my school attendance, i'm gonna give the mall another go on sunday and monday any tips for staring blushing? if i fail i will try see a Gp.. my first therapy visit was bad so i quit, please best anwsers i appreciate it guys use can make me happy. have a good week

[Fishmanpa]

Peter,

Truly.... please find someone to talk to about this. You've posted this several times.

Positive thoughts and prayers

[nomorepanic]

You know suicide isn't the option so not sure why you keep asking as no-one is ever going to say yes

What help are you getting?

[Catherine S]

I wouldn't even be tempted to advise somebody talking about possible suicide, that's a huge responsibility to be giving people here to be honest.

[HalfJack]

I didn't really see it as giving advice, just trying to be positive, but you're right.

Positive thoughts Peter 245 x

[Catherine S]

It wasn't aimed at you in particular half jack, just anybody really.

[Ryan92]

Peter, please return to therapy

It may have started off bad for you but I imagine many people have had a bad start to therapy, you're not the only one

I had a bad start to therapy once but it got better over time

Talk to someone you trust, like a teacher. Does your school have a counsellor ?, talk to them.

[Catherine S]

By the way half jack...care to share with us what the Arabic sentiment is? Or you prefer it to be a secret. I could speak to you in Welsh if that's okay with you?

[venusbluejeans]

By the way half jack...care to share with us what the Arabic sentiment is? Or you prefer it to be a secret. I could speak to you in Welsh if that's okay with you?

Utter the name and I feel free
Of passion and music:
Crazy hour sings
Ancient times dead.

It is from a poem by Federico García Lorca a spanish poet.

Not quite sure if that is the 'proper' translation

google knows things lol

[Catherine S]

Okay, but why is it written in Arabic? And more to the point Venus, how did you translate Arabic into Spanish