I have so many physical symptoms today and just feel genuinely so, so ill. I need reassurance so bad but I don't know what anybody can say to make me feel better. The pains in my chest and spasms are unbearable and I feel so nauseous and faint. I keep shivering one minute and then being hot the next. My hands are constantly soaking with sweat. Sometimes I stand up and literally have to steady myself because for a moment I go so faint and hot and just feel so deathly in those moments. In my head and heart I know that if I sleep tonight I'll die from either a lung/heart related problem or sleep apnoea which I have so many symptoms of. My arms are aching so much and I just bent over to stole my cat and literally got such a chest spasms and was so out of breath. I get these sudden sick, heavy, hot feeling in my head that travel down my body and make me so faint, and like I'm slipping away. I don't understand way the spasms in my chest are and everytime I laugh I have to grab my chest because it spasms and is painful. When I feel sick like right now it makes me shivery and I shake so much. I don't know how I'm supposed to sleep and take tha risk of not waking up again. I know I'll either die or that I'll just cease to exist. I just always feel sure that I'm closing my eyes for the last time and that it's over for me, for some reason. I even get sort of superstitious, like what if this life is someone's dream and they wake up etc. I can't stop sobbing and the sick feeling and shivering is making me shake and tremor.