Was wondering if it is just me. I was out tonight for my brothers birthday and me him his fiance and a couple of other friends went to a nice Italian restaurant on the west end of Glasgow ( lovely area). I start off happy and upbeat although all the time fighting off my phobia and anxiety as i had to be there for my bros bday. But as the night goes on i get sadder and sadder to the point i am depressed and literally have to fight back tears as not to embarrass myself. I am home now and find myself to be very down and sad and i don't know why. I do feel really lonely and don't really have anyone i can talk to especially at this moment as everyone is busy. I think i feel this way as when i am out i wish to be like the others who are out, the kind of people who have say there wifes gfs kids and a genuine happy life. Am i the only one who feels/gets this way ?