I have a major problem with lying. It's not so much that I do it because I want to be deviant, in fact I hate doing it, but I do it to skirt awkward situations. For example, I recently applied to three graduate schools and didn't get into any of them. However, the people at my work (which I am leaving soon) and my classmates were constantly asking me where I got in - so I lied and told them all I had gotten into a couple of places and that I was going to school somewhere else (since obviously I won't be in class with them). Sometimes I'll lie to my friends if I feel like they're not going to like the answer - I live in a house with roommates (who I am close with) but I go home to my parents house often because my pets live there. Sometimes they think I go home too often, so when I'm leaving I'll tell them I'm just running an errand and I'll be back later - which I am, but the lie is still there.
It's gotten to the point where I'll lie for silly reasons and I have to remind myself that I won't be judged or ridiculed for what I'm doing. For example, I will go into a locked bathroom to put my makeup on so that my roommates cannot walk in on me doing my makeup, and I'll then say I was using the restroom or just locked the door out of habit. There is NO reason for me to feel judged for something so simple, but I do, and need to do it privately and then make a lie up to cover the situation.
I think for me it has to do with a lower self-esteem and a need to avoid any sort of awkwardness. But who knows.
Does anyone else have this problem, or am I just some sort of sociopath?