Funny, I've been thinking about how good it would be to have work again to focus on, the more challenging the better.
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Anyway, Hemps, I know your frustration. You may want to try again after you've been on the venlaxafine for another month or so. Here's what I found at between 11 weeks and 12 weeks: I couldn't deny that I was doing way better, i.e. I realized I hadn't cried for weeks. At last I was finding that the negative thoughts were coming much less often, and that my mind was able to steer away from them much easier! I have a confidence now that everything is going to be okay now, but it really gelled at right around the 3 month mark.
So, that's what I'm suggesting; in another few weeks you may have more confidence to take the steps again to come off the diazepam. You could ask your doctor for that beta blocker before you start (for physical symptoms), and stock up on chamomile tea and movies and develop a support network that will help. Be good to yourself
Marie
(ps, don't be afraid to consider a detoxification centre, it might be what you ultimately need. That's what they're there for, plenty of people have struggled before you).