Back when all of this started, in April I told my doctor all of my symptoms and he had me do strength tests and said I had weakness in my left arm. I also had the tingling in my left calf. I was thinking the tingling in the calf was from hurting my back, I did something to it because it hurt for like 7 weeks. I went for another appointment to see how the meds were working for anxiety and meds for sleeping I wasn't sleeping or eating because of the anxiety. Well he checked my strength again said the left arm was weaker. So he said he wanted the test on all four limbs. That was a month ago and I swear the tingling and the twitches had pretty much went away, but then about four or five days before the appointment, it started coming back and now after everything yesterday in there getting that test done I have these symptoms back and my arm feels weaker and stiff and it aches. The tingling there comes and goes goes up my neck into my cheek.
I feel like I'm repeating myself but I need to explain and maybe make some sense of it all.
I apologize for rambling, I get confused and feel like no one understands. It's every time a doctor says something I obsess over it trying to analyze what it all means.
My mother told me to stop being paranoid my husband told me to use common sense my daughter said I was being stupid. I am scared and I can't think straight when I get scared. I don't want to go back next week for my arms because if in the next few days I get where I accept that the test on my legs went well and it was normal, I will worry again after that one and worry some more until I go see my family doctor. So I could potentially be back into the hole I had been in since March. It's all very upsetting. Seeing doctors make me worse not better.
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If it's not a pinched nerve then what is it? I had my thyroid checked, my vitamin B12, checked for Lyme. Has anyone on here found out that they did have something really bad? I'm scared it Will be me. I read somewhere that ALS can start in a limb was I getting better or was that all in my head too? Why is this happening, what did I do? God knows I can't take this, I can't live like this. I just want it to stop.
---------- Post added at 09:07 ---------- Previous post was at 08:40 ----------
My family says there is not anything wrong with me, they said that it would be obvious how do they know I don't want anything wrong with me. I don't even want this anxiety or fears or the crying how do I help myself it's up to me right?
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My arm and shoulder are burning right now,and I feel like I can't hold my kindle up to type, but it wasn't like this three days ago. Does anyone have any advice to help cope and get a grip and think logically? Am I being stupid?
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I have read all the post s on here from what people are saying about their ALS fears and convinced myself I can't have it and now im not so sure, I didn't think I had that until Google came up with it. I also know of someone who has it, and my sister in law has MS. Would I think these things if I didn't know of people who have them? The person with ALS is a friend of someone I work with and she is checking in with this person weekly and telling me stuff like how bad she is and what things feel like. I get a hot flush feeling every time. It is a terrible thing. I am freaking out.
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I mean isn't it like really really rare, and I didn't think I had any weakness the doctor says I do my arm shook each time I pushed against him that was the test, but you know when your crying an panicking, I get clumsy and I feel shaky, I did pushups and lifting things trying to prove to myself that I have strength. I do drop things when the anxiety is high but isn't that from the anxiety, I have tried buttons, I had trouble once and thought it was because I had long finger nails so I cut them and tried again until I was satisfied I could button things. See how out of hand I am getting? I tried bottle tops, everything to see, if I could do it. I am losing it.
---------- Post added at 10:50 ---------- Previous post was at 09:33 ----------
I shouldn't have gone to the appointment by myself, that was stupid.
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