I dont know whether I am just going through a blip but I feel as if I am suffering from depression now as a result of being anxious about different health worries and just stressing about everything in general. I have been sitting here since 6 am crying. I have been feeling quite low for a few weeks then all the issues with my mouth ulcers/lichen planus have cropped up and made me worse (read my health anxiety stuff). I have been thinking lately that I wouldnt mind if I just went to sleep and didnt wake up then all this sadness would be over. Wouldnt it be lovely just to be able to not worry about everything. I would never do anything to myself and I am not threatening to do so or just saying this for attention but that in itself is telling me that I am depressed and should really do something about it. I dont really want to go on medication and I am too much of a coward to go to the doctors and admit how I am really feeling but maybe now is the time to go and talk to somebody. Please dont think that I am going to do anything stupid, I am not. I have so much going for me and would never ever do anything to hurt my children and family. Hopefully now I've got this out of my head I can start to move forward. Thanks for listening.