I went for an interview for a school job a couple of weeks ago. As there were only two of us I thought that my chances were really strong, but they decided to readvertise!! I went for it again today and got it!!
Strangely, I don't feel ecstatic and that all my problems are behind me. I do feel pleased and proud, because I put such a strong case forward that it was really difficult for them to ignore me for the job. And it is an excellent job...much better than labelling Celery for a living!!!
I guess the reason that I feel a little bit odd is because I've got no excuses for being depressed anymore. I've got an excellent job that will really stimulate me and where I will learn so much and it's going to give me lots of opportunity to develop on the football coaching side too...jobwise things couldn't be much better!!
Maybe I'm a little concerned that I'll have everything that I've always wanted and that working in depressing factory jobs will be behind me and that if that doesn't make me happy then maybe nothing will.
I guess I've just got to chill out and get on with it. The future is really bright and, given time, I'm sure that my mood will really improve. I have been feeling a lot better generally before today anyway. I have worked really, really hard and I definitely deserve this break. Fingers crossed, this is the start of me really enjoying life!!!
PS. Look out for the House of Agoraphobics on Channel 4 next Tuesday, looks really good!!!
Ships in harbour are safe..but that's not what ships were built for.
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