Avm you have to remember that your brain is completely stressed and tired from anxiety, your outlook on everything will be negative until you start to get better, I woundnt make any major life decisions yet, especially with your partner, I'd wait until you're a little more clear headed. You'll get there, I've been where you have been before. It's no fun, but I promise you'll get there.
Panicer I'm glad you had such an awesome day, I'm sure it was hard to get through but think about how strong you are now for doing it. You're lucky you had a good GP, mine had no idea what I was talking about, I had to look up that derealization is just an anxiety symptom, for a while I was scared about it, now I just want it to go away lol. It's slowly fading but it's the longest lasting symptom I have, Have a great weekend everyone.